Sunday, February 6, 2011

"The Kiss"

As I waited in line to get lunch for my family at Dairy Queen yesterday, I was scanning through radio stations and when it stopped on a channel, I heard something that has stayed on my mind ever since. It stopped on one of the christian stations and there was a preacher talking about marriage and the "kiss". As I listened to him preach about it and how that "kiss" is always the first to go when marriages are on the verge of failure, I looked back into my past when my own marriage failed and then even further back in my past....way back when I was younger. I saw this become truth as a child and again as an adult. As my upcoming wedding approaches, that "kiss" is what I am keeping my focus on. To often marriages fail for the smallest reasons. We become so involved in the negative things going on to remember what made us fall in love in the first place or thinking the grass is greener on the other side. About that, Jimmy Evans says it best when he says "If you think the grass is greener on the other side, It's because you can't see the poop from where you are standing". The first time I heard that I laughed so hard but then realized how true that is! I have seen many people get divorced because they thought that the grass was greener on the other side, and all they fell into was a big pile of poop! Marriage isn't just about never having to worry about being alone or having someone help you with the day to day chores around the house. It is about compromise, love, compassion, and most of all affection. I will end my entry with a promise to myself and to my soon to be husband which is this....No matter how hard things may become, I will NEVER stop giving that "kiss".

Saturday, February 5, 2011


No, no, no! That is all I heard from miss Kenlea the past few days. Kenlea, lets go bye-bye....NO. Kenlea, eat your supper....NO. Kenlea get down before you fall....NO! Kenlea, stop telling me no....NO! Ah children :) Being a mother is in a way like a marriage. A child is in your life to love and to cherish, in sickness and in health, till death do you part. I love every minute of being a mother and would not trade it for the world! Anyone who knows me, knows that my child is my life! I remember being a child myself and my mother would always say "when you get older you will understand why I try to protect you and make you follow rules". Man was she right. Though I never thought as a young child, into my teenage years, or even once I was expecting my own child, that she would be right....then Kenlea was born. She has made me mature in so many ways and I have learned so much from her. Motherhood is more than a title a woman may have, but it is a true blessing! Even through all the daily struggles of discipline, or the constant cleaning of any little mess Kenlea may make, I truly know that GOD has given me this chance to be what he has planned me to be....a MOTHER! I just hope that I can instill the same lessons in my child that my mother did in me. My mother has helped me become the woman I am today and though I don't hold a candle to the woman my mother is, I know that with all of life's lessons that I have and will encounter, it will only get me one step closer to the woman I long to be. A quote I love that goes along with having children would have to be "Don't measure life by the breaths you take, but by the moments that take your breath away". The day Kenlea was born and I saw her beautiful face, really took my breath away and I knew at that moment, my life as I knew it would change forever. With that I end my entry and just want everyone to remember. Life is full of blessings and obstacles, but only one person knows why they occur. Don't second guess them, just welcome them and let them mold you into the person you are destined to be...

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Stress and struggles

This week has been full of lots of stress and struggles! My little girl went into the emergency room on Sunday with 105.6 fever and we have been to the doctor 3 times this week! It just amazes me that in order to get the answers you need, you have to continuously go back and ask for certain tests to be run. However, the most shocking part is you get judged and talked about in a "whisper" as to why you are bringing you child in a third time in a week who has run a fever over 100 for almost a FULL week! All  I can say is I am thankful that we now know exactly what was really going on this whole time with my little one. I just hate that I had to be the one to request the proper test. I hate to be a "negative nancy" but it was on my mind and my heart and that is what this blog will be. MY place to vent and tell my happy or sad stories! That is where the title Love, Life and Motherhood comes from. As exhausting, frustrating, or overwhelming this week has been, there is one thing I can always remember to make it all go away.....There will never be a day without a struggle, but put your faith in GOD and he will always turn your struggles into blessings!!